To the outside eye, it seems thatcelebrity cookand authorRachael Rayhas it all.

But now, Ray says she is feeling lucky to be “alive.”

We don’t care when we eat, we care that we eat together.

Rachael Ray up close smiling

And we’ve been together, this John and this Rachael, every day since the day we met.

And that’s something.

It’s a lot.

Rachael Ray and John Cusimano sitting at table

And some days, it’s everything.

I love you."